David Brainerd – Living on the Brink of Eternity

David-Brainerd David Brainerd was an American missionary in the 18th Century. Brainerd, who died at the age of 29, served as a Christian missionary to Native Americans prior to the founding of the United States. Brainerd very tellingly wrote in his diary, “Oh, I love to live on the brink of eternity.” The spirit contained in this statement and the accompanying actions of a life well lived were impactful.

Brainerd enrolled in Yale to study to become a preacher. While at Yale he began to first experience the symptoms of the tuberculosis that would ultimately claim his life.

He was intelligent, passionate and a little foolish during his time at Yale. His studies came to an abrupt halt when in 1742 he accused his tutor of having “no more grace than a chair.” This controversy resulted in his expulsion from Yale.

Due to a Connecticut law at the time Brainerd could not preach without a college degree. His desire to be a minister was dead. Instead of serving as a minister, it was suggested Brainerd devote himself to missionary work among the Native Americans.

On April 1, 1743 Brainerd began serving as a missionary to Native Americans. Much of his diary during the first portion of his missionary service is spent in a self-deprecating fashion. He referred to himself as a “worm” on no less than eight occasions and questioned his qualifications to serve as a missionary. Guilt over a lack of education, struggles with language and culture, and few tangible results caused Brainerd to question his calling to missions.

David_Brainerd_on_horsebackThe tuberculosis Brainerd experienced while at Yale got worse under the conditions he experienced on the mission field. He put over 3,000 miles on horseback. He battled a lack of sleep, food and companionship. Brainerd suffered from what was believed to be depression and even wished for his own death nearly two dozen times.

In his first year of missions Brainerd worked in New York at a Housatonic Indian settlement with the Kaunaumeek tribe. Shortly after arriving to the mission field he wrote, “I scarce ever felt myself so unfit to exist as now: saw I was not worthy of a place among the Indians, where I am going, if God permit: thought I should be ashamed to look them in the face, and much more to have any respect shown me there.” During this period he started a school for Native American children and began a translation of the Psalms.

Brainerd was next called to serve among the Delaware Indians in Pennsylvania for a year. Brainerd’s first diary entry upon arriving at his new post was, “Spent much time in prayer in the woods; and seemed raised above the things of the world: my soul was strong in the Lord of Hosts; but was sensible of great barrenness.”

For his final missions assignment Brainerd was sent to New Jersey to work among the Crossweeksung tribe. Edwards adds in the diary that this was the period when Brainerd’s ministry, “had the greatest success.” Before he left Crossweeksung the church there had 130 Native American members.

Brainerd once prayed a prayer that summarizes the desires he had toward God, “Oh, that I might be a flaming fire in the service of the Lord. Here I am, Lord send me; send me to the ends of the earth…send me from all that is called earthly comfort; send me even to death itself if it be but in Thy service and to promote Thy Kingdom.” With or without the ability to serve Brainerd had the heart of a servant. He was willing to give and sacrifice all to glorify God as a missionary and as a disciple.

In November of 1746, following a scant 43 months of missions service, David Brainerd become too ill to continue the rigors of missions life. Tuberculosis and hard missionary living were taking their tolls on Brainerd’s young body. Brainerd moved into Johnathon Edward’s home for a period of convalescence.

On October 9, 1747, at the age of 29, David Brainerd died of tuberculosis in Edwards’ home. His gravestone reads, “Sacred to the memory of the Rev. David Brainerd. A faithful and laborious missionary.”

Certainly there were missionaries who served longer than Brainerd and missionaries who can point to more tangible results. However, his missions work is not his legacy.

It is Brainerd’s diary that is his greatest legacy. His huge influence comes in the form of his diary being published by Johnathon Edwards. First published only two years after Brainerd’s death The Life of David Brainerd was simply an Edwards’ edited version of Brainerd’s own handwritten diary.

Many great missionaries claim the book profoundly impacted their faith and decision to serve as missionaries. This distinguished list includes Henry Martyn who served in India in the 18th Century, William Carrey who served in the 18th Century in India, Adoniram Judson who served in the 19th Century in Burma, David Lyman, who served in the 19th Century in Hawaii and Jim Elliot, who served in the 20th Century in Ecuador. Michael McClymond claimed, “The list of missionaries who testified to Brainerd’s influence is a who’s-who of Anglo-American missions in the last two centuries.”

Brainerd bypassed personal gain, wealth, title, and even a long comfortable life in order to bring splendor to God. His life was dedicated to and expended for the advancement of the kingdom. Brainerd’s example is one every Christian should embrace and teach. It was not Brainerd’s accomplishments as a missionary that influenced so many others. It was instead, his acknowledgment of his weaknesses and his need to rely upon God that has drawn so many to his book.